A little Whine
I'm damn f***ed up atm...
Lost my job last month, because the company ran out of cash and I still havent got payed.
Had to move back to Munich where I now have no real home, just hopping between spots to stay.
One is my Grandad who lost his eyesight and who's girlfreind Dyed two weeks ago, and it hurts me so much to see him suffer (He's allmost 90).
The other spot is my mom, who is afraid to loose her job, 5 years before she's done working and would get her long deserved pension.
The last was my Girlfreind who just broke up with me, because I might have to relocate again for work and she couldn't take it no more, not to know how long I'm going to stay (trigger might have been some Job offers I have, where I tryed to talk with her about it). Its been a damn hard time for our partnership the last 2 Years because I lived 8 car hours away and a lot of bad things happend to her in that time too.
I had to leave most of my best freinds behind with the last company, so I can't hang out with them now
And my old mates here all have a twisted view on life and seem to have fallen for drugs in the time I've been gone so I don't want to hang out with them anymore.
All in all I somehow can't find the power to finish this right now.
Maybe some of you peeps can help me find more motivation, please?!
What do you do in hard times to keep you motivated doing Art?... I'm not saying that tis is the first time I'm down, I've been through a lot of hard times but they always seem to summ up, and usually doing Art is my therepy, but at the moment I feel so empty.
Sorry for whining, but I bet I'm not the only one with these issues and maybe a little talk about the motivation in hard times can help more people than just me...
Maybe theres even someone Near Munich who might want to go out for a beer or so and excange creative opinions?! (Rollin?)